I feel

I feel

anxiousness

unfairness

annoyance, hatred, fear

tired, uselessness

wanting to abandon all my plans,

and wanting to have our family.

It can't all be perfect, but... I want it to be so badly.

I am too tired for work. I am tired inside. I am hating inside. I am a victim inside. I hate all of them inside. I feel alone and alienated by people who love to see me. My world doesn't make sense.

I want that baby so badly. I want it to be perfect.

I love him so so much. I don't care what happens because he will be there for me.

It will be okay.